Hi again,
Right now I feel like I can write whatever I want because no ones really reading this. So we went to the movies tonight. It was pretty good. My boyfriend and his friends and I went. One big happy family. I like being around other people. It's always nice to feel accepted in another group. Anyway enough rambling.
So it's pretty late here. About 1:30am. I have trouble sleeping sometimes when I start thinking about my future... and I don't mean like 20 years away future I mean like 6 months from now future, People always tell me to live in the moment and not worry. But I'm just not that kind of person. I worry and stress all the time. Did I say the right thing? Did I laugh at the right time? How am I going to get everything done in time? just stupid stuff. Anyways. Im thinking about going back to school. I graduated 3 years ago from high school and have been working for about 2 and a half of those years. So going back to school is a daunting thing. So I dont have many talents besides having long eyelashes (which is beyond my control) and being able to mimic some accents and stuff. Im not really good at drawing. I can't sing. Im not tall. Or do I believe in myself very much. Yeah yeah I know. Oh another blog with some whining girl who doesnt believe in herself and has no self confidence. Well actually no. I come across very confident to people. I can be a little shy at first but most people are. My problems start when Im on my own. Like I just over think everything. Get scared of the future and the 'unknown'. Just like most other people. So yeah... I thought maybe Ill do a make up course, or a design course, an event planning course. Do I go to uni or tafe? Should I study correspondence and continue working full time? I just want something to jump out at me. I want to be one of those people thats like "Yep, Im going to be a doctor". Im so sick of feeling like im stuck in limbo? Does any one else feel this way? Is anyone else even reading this? doubt it.
Ok. This blog just went totally off topic. If anyone does read this. Let me know. If anyone has anything bad to say. Just move on. Your hater comments arent wanted here.
Thanks guys.
xoxo.